.002 : fixed up the layout how I wanted it

4am and I fixed the layout. I tell people I never sleep, or at least not during the night. I'm a vampire, rar. The layout was found here and I love it cos I wanted something simple and clean.

I've already got a few friends on here so yay. I'm actually hiding from some people from LJ cos I have another dreamwidth (http://duckie.dreamwidth.org) that makes more sense than hobo would to most people. Gives me much more freedom to say and do whatever I damn well please. Feels good.

I'll take my ambien and go to bed now. I wish I could upload a moodtheme without buying an account. The iPhone is taking up all of my funds so I can't exactly buy things right now (as I make plans for three major vacations and a weekend trip coming up).

.003 : anti-social day is anti-social

Fell asleep around five something in the morning. Woke up around noon. Camped out in the bed and just thought about random things and threw myself a mini pity party. I realized just how extremely impatient I am with my friends. I mean, if you're in a rough spot? Think about just how rough it is before throwing pity parties people. Do you have the love of family and friends, do you have your health, and do you have at least some purpose to your life? Then things aren't that bad. Do you have food each day, do you have running water, or a roof over your head? Then things aren't that bad. I know I'm in a situation that I absolutely fucking hate but I also know that I'm never going to go without anything thanks to my family. I just wish I had more of my own independent freedom and didn't feel so constrained all the time. Or that someone would actually hire me without giving me the excuse of "over/under qualified" each time. Why the fuck won't someone take a chance? One person was going to do that and then they found out that I'm bipolar and offered the job to someone else. Totally. Illegal. That's discrimination against a mental disease or defect, and that's definitely illegal. But a 12$/hour job with 20 hours a week tops is not worth making a legal issue over.

So now I'm going to go troll the job listings and send out a plethora of resumes that'll never get me an answer or a job and let the cat out so he'll leave me the Hell alone already.